Wednesday, December 30, 2015


I hope your Christmases were cozy, slow, and filled with moments that had you scrambling for the pause button on life so you could enjoy it a little longer. I hope you got to bury your nose in the Christmas tree and get a big sniff. I bet you got to squeeze family and friends real tight. Speaking of tight, I hope your pants felt a little tight after a huge meal and you didn't mind one just changed into your pajamas. I hope you got to sing some carols or hymns and lingered over the words, feeling their trueness and was able to let hope fill you up.

There is a magic about Christmas that you experience during childhood that slowly dissipates as you get older, and it is nearly impossible to get back, because as a kid Christmas meant the possibility that something GREAT might happen, and as you get older you learned that the possibilities are limited. But as a kid, that anticipation, with no borders or limitations, is delicious. In hindsight, it is important to note that as fun and magical Christmas was, there was also a tinge of disappointment at the end of it all - disappointment at how no present really lived up, at how abruptly it all ended, and how dismal the days after seemed. 

As I grew older, I learned to replace it with a new appreciation for celebrating togetherness with my family, who was usually dispersed far and wide. And as my faith matured, it became about meditating on the passages in the bible about Jesus' birth and marveling at the story. In this way, I learned that the real magic was in the wonder of that story, and then of learning and relearning how to hope in the midst of difficulty. The bonus was being able to look in the faces of loved ones and encourage each other to likewise have hope.  

All of this made me resolve to be intentional about instilling traditions around Christmas with my kids. When you have kids around, you get to experience the child-like wonder again - how can you not? They think it's amazing to see lights up on a house or a tree being carted indoors to be decorated; everything is awesome to them. 

But I don't want all that excitement to lead up to Christmas Day and presents in the morning. I want the celebrating of the season to happen all December long and to spread the gift giving, meditating on the reason for celebrating and doing special things all throughout the month. I want to celebrate St. Nicholas Day, and read passages about the Christmas story, make cookies, send cards, pick out gifts, decorate, etc., because we can do them together. I want to emphasize how this time allows us more oppportunities to show love to our families and help people in need, but not just because of the upcoming Christmas Day. I want to luxuriate in the whole month of having nights to tell Sloane and Logan the Christmas story again and again and teach them Christmas carols to sing together.

Then Christmas Eve and Day will be special because we just get to do more of what we had been doing all month. And sometimes it is extra special because those days might mean we get to see family that we don't usually get to see. I'm considering just having Christmas month, instead of Christmas Day. Who's with me??

We were at home this Christmas, so it was different than our usual traveling Christmas. Ken's family was going to be coming through for Christmas Eve dinner, so we woke up that day with one mission: to cook a dinner. I loved that we had no other agenda except to clean, patter around, listen to Christmas music and cook a meal.

I opened my Christmas present early so we got to put on records to listen to all day long while we cooked. I posted this photo and this one on my Instagram that morning - I just can't get enough of how Sloane slings her arm around Logan when she sits next to her.  We had a moment of crisis when the power went out. But we waited it out, and during a grocery store run I spotted guys in hard hats working up on the wires. "You saved Christmas!" is what I regretted not shouting out the window as I drove by.

Once Ken's family arrived, we all headed over to our church's Christmas Eve service for Scripture readings and singing in response. It was beautiful.

This is the family photo we attempted before dinner.  I'm a little frazzled from setting up dinner, Sloane was in between funny faces, we couldn't keep Logan's finger out of her mouth and Ken wanted to get the photo over with as soon as possible so we could eat - real life!  

My cousin Lois has been visiting for Christmas and it's been great having an extra pair of hands around the house for things like cooking and dishes and also to help give these babes extra squeezes.

For some reason I didn't take the time to take a proper photo of the tree, but here is the best I've got.

Growing up, we often had Italian food for Christmas so that's what makes me feel the most Christmassy. We made a pasta bolognase, branzino fish, stuffed mushrooms, garlic and lemon broccoli, and garlic bread. Ken wanted to cook his favorite thing to make, which is crab rangoons, and that, along with some shrimp tempura, we had Italian with a touch of Chinese.  It all seemed appropriate. 

After the most decadent chocolate cake there ever was, we gathered around and gave each other the gifts we had gotten for each other. It was really fun this year to see what everyone had chosen for each other.

Sloane got a bunch of books that I have really enjoyed going through with her.

Logan was already asleep so Sloane got the honor of opening Logan's presents. 

Miles Davis and a glass of red as extra company throughout the night. 

Friday, December 25, 2015


I made this video for my parents, since we weren't going to see them this Christmas; it's from various moments of our December. I hope you all are having a wonderful holiday!

Tuesday, December 22, 2015


We are still trying to recover from the weekend over here. Ken caught a cold and Logan seems to have undergone a sleep personality change - she is waking up too many times in the middle of the night - but we are getting through these early days of the week knowing that Christmas is just ahead! I've been at work the past couple of days, marveling at my ability to function and suspecting a higher power. Just the resurgence of love that fills me up when I see my girls in the morning, no matter how tough the night before, is a testament to some sort of wonder and mystery. 

We pulled off a short trip to DC, and sure enough, as soon as our feet hit the pavement and started walking the city streets, I felt invigorated.  Walking through the city has that effect on me, and I consider it just as necessary for my soul as a hike through the forest.  Both prompt soul swells that exercise my perspective. We got to eat lunch at Buredo (sushi burritos!), visit the Wonder exhibit at Renwick gallery, stop by Milk bar (cereal milk ice cream!), walk through the holiday market, sip on hot toddy's at a nearby bar, eat dinner at Shack Shack and watch the Wizard's win at the Verizon Center.  All in a day's work my friends. The best part of it were the family and friends we got to see; it made the day feel fat with love.

We love having my cousin Lois visiting with us.

My sister made this headpiece for Logan!

Ken had never been to the White House before. Neither had Sloane, so it was both of their first times.

That time Eunice and I realized we bought the same coat ...And we found it extra funny that Sharon would never have that problem. I love my sisters.

This face! So good. 

Somehow Sloane managed to find a stick in the city streets of DC to play with.

We walked by this building and I did a double-take. It is so beautiful. It's a huge building in a style that stands out from all the other buildings in that area. I looked it up later when I got home and it is the Eisenhower Executive Office Buildings and it was built in the 1880s in the style of the French Second Empire. 

You guys, the Wonder exhibit at the Renwick gallery is amazing. They have these giant instillations that are visually and spatially stunning. That and the fact that it isn't too big and there are plenty of bathrooms - makes it a great place to visit with kids..I would love to go back. 

A rainbow made out of strands of embroidery thread.

There was a room where the installation was on the ceiling so you could lay on the floor to look up at it. I think it was Ken's favorite room.

There were these handmade ornaments made out of gourds at the holiday market and Sloane was obsessed with them - especially the ones that had a nativity scene inside. I have been telling her the Christmas story over and over again and so it is vivid in her mind. She wanted to look at every single one!

We stopped into a bar that advertised hot toddy's and Sloane got a maraschino cherry. 

This is us pre-burger. You guys, these girls are so cute I have to restrain myself from gobbling them up.

Sloane was really into the game and events this year - which is so fun. And she loved the jersey that our friend Eugene got her. She kept asking if she can also wear it in the summer.

And this is her in the bathroom afterwards, practicing her jumps, just like the basketball players. 

(our trip to DC two years ago....look at Ken's hair!)