Friday, August 31, 2012


Tomorrow it will be one month since we first met our baby girl. One month! As a huzzah and for posterity, here is a video montage of all our months leading up to this kind of crazy but superbly awesome month.

Saturday, August 25, 2012


S. is actually 3 weeks today, but this picture is from when she is 2 weeks old.

At 2 weeks
she makes sounds like a baby dinosaur when she wakes up and
 forms her mouth like a baby bird when she is hungry.

Her eyes are liquid black and she stares into faces and cranes her neck
 to catch glimpses of we're not sure what. 
She has a yawn the size of a hippo's!

She has long toes and fingers and the chub cheeks that are perfect for hundreds of kisses

She is an efficient eater (so says the pediatrician), she doesn't cry for long, and she is already strong.

At 3 weeks
her voice is a little stronger, her coos are expressive, and she swivels her head from side to side.

Her little hands have started to clutch to things like people's shirts, and she seems more aware of sounds.

She is easily consoled. She is warm and sweet when I wake her, 
and she stretches her arms and arches her back while she is waking up. 
It's my favorite thing right now.

I love her to pieces.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012


Currently listening to:

Monday, August 20, 2012


My parents are in town for the week, and this past weekend, my sisters came into town as well, so that we could all be together and celebrate Sloane. It is a big deal when my family can get together because my parents have to trek their way from S. Korea to be here, and my sisters have to come in from their respective east coast cities, despite busy schedules and travel issues.  It made my heart so so glad to have them all here this past weekend. I can't think of anything better than having my family meet and love on Sloane, and I only wish we all had more time together!

my parents: they are the cutest

sloane with her grandpa

with grandma

lots of cuddles

yes, that's a teeny tutu


i love these dahlias

with husband + sloane

eunice and val

aunt eunice! 

pass the baby

my sisters

sloane taking in aunt sharon


Friday, August 17, 2012


I now live my life lately in 3 hour increments (sometimes 2...or 1). It's a totally new way of being. Most of the time, it's do-able, and I'm all, wow I'm doing it! At this stage, her needs are basic and she is pretty clear cut and up front about what she needs. She's a good baby. Yes, BF (breastfeeding) is taking over my life, it's both awesome and exhausting, but more on that later. Other times, I'm like, wait is this what my life is going to be like forever? 'Cause sometimes, you feel like a baby-caring machine, not really like a mom yet, and you miss sleeping like a normal person and living life without breast milk leaking all over your clothes. And since I'm being real here, there is a little bit of feeling like you are your body, to the house, to the feed/poop/sleep cycle... It's hard because it's different, because you have to turn off all your selfish inclinations in order to serve and take care of another being that is wholly dependent on you, and because you see how altered your life will be.

But for right now, I am trading in my tired moments for the minutes where I can watch her sleep, so perfect and peaceful, for the chance to notice how she changes slightly each day, for all the different faces that she makes which crack me up, her wide-eyed stares, to watch K. give her kisses and baths, and for her sweet newborn baby smell. I am keeping in mind that my job right now is not only to take care of her but to enjoy her, to bond, and to delight in her together with K. And that's amazing.

Wednesday, August 15, 2012


When you just had a baby, fiber is your friend. Trust me on this one. So when a friend brought over these whole wheat carrot and apple muffins, I hailed her as a Godsend. Not only are these muffins crazy good and good for you, but they are packed with fiber (whole wheat flour! flax seed! apples!). I immediately asked her for the recipe and made some tweaks of my own. These are also great for a quick way to get energy in the middle of the night when you are up breastfeeding and realize you are feeling ravenous.

1. Mix together dry ingredients. 

2. Mix together wet ingredients + apples and carrots.

3. Pour into pan.

4. Consume.


  • 3 1/4 cups whole wheat flour
  • 1/4 cup of flax seed
  • 1 1/2 teaspoons salt
  • 1 teaspoon ground nutmeg
  • 2 teaspoons baking soda
  • 1 teaspoon ground cinnamon
  • 2 cups sugar
  • 1 cup vegetable oil
  • 4 eggs, beaten
  • 1/3 cup water
  • 1 cup of applesauce
  • 1 cup of grated carrot
  • 1 cup of grated apple
  • 1 teaspoon lemon juice
Preheat oven to 350 degrees F. In a large bowl, combine flour, flax seed, salt, nutmeg, baking soda, cinnamon and sugar. In a separate bowl, combine oil, eggs, water, carrot, apple. applesauce and lemon juice. Mix wet ingredients into dry, fold in. Bake in muffin pans, sprayed with nonstick spray, for 40 minutes, or until a tester comes out clean.

Monday, August 13, 2012


Sloane is nine days old and she is the sweetness.

She is healthy and strong. She also gets cuter every day.
She cries, eats, poops, like a baby should, and when she’s awake she stares at everything with her eyes that are pools of black. I don’t know how much she sees but she’s a really good at staring. I’m getting really good at staring, too. She is a miracle and we can't believe she's ours.

Thursday, August 9, 2012

Wednesday, August 8, 2012


i'm still trying to organize all my thoughts
here i am jotting down a few,
so i don't forget.

things that i've realized/pleasantly surprised by/grateful for:
- this baby is healthy
- people are seriously super genuinely happy for us
- staying at the hospital wasn't as scary as i thought it would be
- i was right to be worried about all the difficulties of labor and recovery and breastfeeding. it's crazy. BUT, it's do-able. and most amazingly, i'm doing it.
- it was nice to get people i love visit me at the hospital
- having my mother-in-law here is great
- people are bringing us meals, and that's awesome
- my sister makes a really good mi-yuk (seaweed) soup
- the lack of sleep that you practice during pregnancy really DOES prepare you for these first few weeks.
- i don't get tired of staring at baby
- i don't get tired of watching husband with baby
- i love baby more each day.

Monday, August 6, 2012


She's here..!

...and I'm totally in love.