Tuesday, August 24, 2010

now, to be PRESENT

Its true I've been really tired, but I think something is happening in my psyche that's making it think that I'm experiencing a world-altering, reality-shaking event. Yes, perhaps marriage is that, but i think its the combination of many many things. Kind of like a growing jenga tower. Each thing this past summer has been like a jenga block stacking up and I haven't been able to decompress or ground myself, like I usually like/need to. Last night, it came to a strange head. I don't really want to describe it here, but there was something very werid happening. I tried to do some of the regular things that I do to come back to earth, but none of it was working, until I found this passage and read it to myself.

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters. He restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

When these words are raw and medicinal, they are raw and medicinal.

Friday, August 20, 2010

good omen

both of our shoes arrived in the mail today! and its oh so exciting.